# Chapter 13
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In my experience, Nezar's psychological situation in moments like this can be condensed into two things.
I did something wrong or was about to do something wrong.
Regardless of the truth, the problem is that it was directly related to my guilt.
Even if the answer is either one, I can't deal with it.
Typically, the best behavior is to nod no matter what Nezar says.
Unfortunately, now was not the time to pay attention to him.
Because my precious first friend was being neglected at home!
"no.
As this is a personal matter, I think it will be a little difficult.
Mr.
Pansion?
If you don't mind, could you give me a moment?"
Pansion's eyes briefly focused on Nezar.
However, he immediately stood up and moved his body in the direction where I was and responded.
"Yes, just for a little while."
"Ah, then I guess I'll have to get up now.
His Highness will still be here, right? haha!
Even if you don't say it, I know everything.
"I know you're going to be here for a while."
Rockherd quickly stood up, straightened his clothes and approached me in front of Pansion.
Nezar's expression when looking at that scene was completely serious.
Our eyes found his slightly tilted head, but he only raised his manicured eyebrows once and quickly looked away.
Even now, nearly six years later, it's difficult to delve into Nezar's inner thoughts.
What do I dislike so much?
Even though I wasn't particularly narrow-minded, I always showed it even when I was a little disappointed.
I'm not the fifteen-year-old girl, but there?
"Tsk, I'm always oblivious only when necessary.
"Why should I care about Nezar's feelings on your behalf, you idiot?"
Rockherd passed by and hit me on the forehead.
I tried to say something, but all I could do was pay attention to Pan Shion who was quickly approaching.
I left the room frightened by Nezar, who, contrary to usual, did not show irrational stubbornness.
If I was uncomfortable with the idea of venting my disappointment in any way, I found it very difficult to breathe when it was quiet like now.
After all, hugging someone deeply into your heart is something you should avoid.
No matter what I do, all I care about is being tired.
"Shall we go separate places?"
It was only four hours ago that we met in the chrysanthemum garden.
Even though it had only been four hours, Pan Shion's face looked quite tired.
Why do we hold separate meetings even on holidays?
"No, I don't think that's necessary."
"I thought you'd be in Enterera at least until sunset."
"I thought so too."
Unlike his tired face, his smile was very gentle.
I didn't have the confidence to meet that tickling look, so I rolled my eyes and opened my mouth again.
"Caron also came here with me.
"I feel like I need to tell you."
Pan Shion's eyes widened.
"OK.
"Is there a reason you came with us to Ezelot?"
reason?
That's because his maids are harassing him!
"Yes, I wanted Lady Charon to sleep here for two days.
It was disappointing that we only met for one day, so I invited Young-ae.
If it's okay with you, I would like to get permission from Lord Pansion."
Oh, that's not it.
What I was trying to say was not, "Caron has finally arrived in Ezelot.
I want to stay with him for a few more days, but please allow me to stay away."
However, contrary to my intention, my mouth did not open so easily.
Because Charon, the person involved, was reluctant to inform Pansion.
"As long as the child is okay, it doesn't matter to me.
But did you really ask to see me for that reason?"
Pan Shion's expression was calm as always.
Was something I just invented really that revealing?
As expected, deceiving others was not an easy task.
Now that things have reached this point, I decided to take it easy.
To put it bluntly, the situation Caron was experiencing amounted to domestic violence.
Tolerating it alone would not be the right decision.
"no.
In fact, what I was trying to tell was a slightly different story."
Let's hold on just this once.
When you don't have to take it anymore, then you can say it.
“Still, since you gave permission, I will stay in Ezelot with Lady Charon for two days.
My maids and I will take good care of you, so don't worry too much.
"Ezelot employees are not rude like other places."
Of course, this meant that they would not announce it directly, but it did not mean that they would refrain from indirect expressions.
Did you understand the meaning of what I said?
Pan Shion still had an incomprehensible expression on her face.
He tilted his head briefly and then turned his back to me.
Only after the dark blonde disappeared around the corner did I turn and push open the living room door.
I just wanted to find Nezar's lover, but how did I end up meddling in other people's family affairs?
I sighed, opened the room door and entered.
"What did you say?"
Nezar opened his mouth as soon as I lay down next to him.
His silent gaze was directed to the spacious map spread out on the table.
"one."
I moistened my lips with my tongue in response to his question.
The map Nezar was looking at was different in many ways from the maps I knew.
Looking at the arrows and letters written on it, it seemed to indicate the route of logistics movement.
"Correlation between peaceful families and superficial friendships?"
"What kind of strange thing is this?"
"You know, what's more important to you, Nezar, your friend's pride or your safety?"
Nezar, who was silently looking at the table, frowned at my words.
The area around the eye I found was black and dead, as if I had been up all night for days.
"Could it be that this friend is not Lord Pansion?"
"Mr.
Pansion or not.
I'm not referring to a specific person, just a friend.
"What's most important to you?"
The room was cold, even though it was filled with the scarlet light of late afternoon, and Nezar's breath on my forehead was warm, like steam that had been heated for a long time.
"It seems that if you worry about that friend's stability, you are hurting his pride."
"I think it's similar."
"Then you just need to worry about your safety and not let your pride be hurt."
"What did you hear me say?
Even if it doesn't work?
"Make it happen even if it can't be done."
Nezar reached over to the other side and straightened the teacup that was rolling on the map.
So, he took a teapot that he didn't even know existed and poured it into the cup.
Judging by the fact that there was no trace of hot energy visible, it looked like tea that had been neglected for a long time.
"At the end of the day, it's enough not to know the other person, right?
Then you can move as you want without worrying about what others will think."
It was an unexpected answer.
No, that's not advice in the first place, right?
Doesn't it just seem cruel?
"It looked like he had just said a lot.
"How used to deceiving people are you?"
"No way.
"It must be an illusion."
"I don't think...
...
.
Does Nezar often deceive people?
"You lied to me and then hid it until the end?"
Nezar let out a short laugh at my question.
The voice was dry and dry, like barley bread that had been hardened for 15 days.
"That's something only a weak person does, Kate.
A weak person who must please others and whose social standing is determined by the perception of those around them.
So if something complicated comes up, you'd be better off reporting me rather than wasting time thinking about it.
"There would be nothing better for you than to use me."
I pretended nothing was wrong, but I felt a cold sweat spreading down my back, which was in contact with the sofa.
Of course, it could just be a simple illusion.
Even so, Nezar's words felt as if he had read everything inside me and spat it out.
It became difficult to make eye contact, so I quickly lowered my head.
In addition to the tremor, Nezar's words, which gave me a feeling of shame, brought heat to my face.
"Do you care so much about me because I'm your fiancé?"
Nezar, who was drinking tea, rolled his eyes and looked at me.
The red eyes, which were originally dark with black shadows, were now as dull as the night sky.
Oh yes.
I finally realized what was so strange.
Nezar never actually moved his facial muscles during my conversation today.
Although he let out a laugh, he only pretended to be funny for a moment; in fact, he maintained a stern expression ever since I first appeared in the room;
Is something bad happening?
He blinked his eyes slowly, with a serious expression on his face, then took the teacup away from his lips.
"huh."
"Really?"
"huh. really."
I was shocked by these words and jumped out of my chair.
How can you look so casual and not deny it even once?
"Isn't that too much?
In times like these, even if you are right, it is polite to respond anyway!
"Nezar is the crown prince and he doesn't know it?"
Nezar laughed briefly.
But it was literally very brief, and soon a deep sigh left Nezar's lips.
Unlike before, breathing was cold and painful.
Seeing that he was tired from exhaustion and even opening his mouth, I hesitantly placed my butt on the sofa.
Even though he used all his strength in front of me, he didn't try to show it.
Today's Nezar looked quite precarious, as if he was walking a tightrope close to his limit.
"I heard you went out to meet Charon Entera?"
Where did you hear that sound again?
"I met him by chance when I went to the Imperial Castle.
Lady Charon invited me.
Directly too.
I even wrote a letter.
"Isn't it huge?"
As I spoke, the corners of my mouth rose for no reason.
Is this enough for us to consider ourselves close friends?
"I think I heard that talking about men is essential for women to approach you.
Could it be that you were talking about the daughter of Entera and Lord Pansion?
I shook my head.
No matter how much I lived my life saying what I wanted, I wasn't mean enough to talk about my brother in front of my sister.
Of course, since the Entera brothers aren't real brothers, there won't be any screaming like there was between me and my real brothers, but that made it all the more indescribable.
First of all, talking about brothers is meaningless unless it is an insult.
"We've already decided to stay two days together in Ezelot.
"If that's okay, why don't we go see Nezar too?"
It was a heaven-sent golden opportunity.
Charon Enterera, a fierce warrior, and Nezar Audrine Kabal, heir to the throne.
If the fateful first date begins at this moment, when the two are sharing the same time in the same space...
...
.
But will Nezar easily give his heart to her because she is a beauty?
Nezar Audrine Kabal, a man full of reason?
When I thought about it rationally, the assumption that Nezar and Charon would meet didn't seem like a very likely situation.
"That was the story Lord Pansion said we should share."
As I always feel, Nezar is very meticulous by nature.
He always remembered every word I spoke or every action I demonstrated.
The feeling of having everything seen from the inside probably stems from this.
"Why don't you know me?
Lady Charon is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen.
"If you meet Nezar, you will fall in love at first sight, right?"
"It looks like you fell in love at first sight."
As expected, Nezar didn't seem to have the slightest interest in Charon.
As proof of this, Nezar's gaze is still directed at the map on the table, not at me.
I spoke in a more enthusiastic voice to divert his attention.
"I guarantee that if I were a man, I would definitely fall in love.
Lady Charon is like a fairy who descended into the forest...
...
.
"Whenever our eyes meet, I often lose reality."
Wow, was that a little harsh?
Although there was some exaggeration, more than half of it was true.
Although I felt like my beauty had diminished because I was wearing a robe now, if I dressed appropriately, I would be able to attract all the attention at the ball.
However, the opponent was none other than Nezar.
He was a master with a heart of steel, used to treating women like stones.
Ugh, this is so frustrating.
There are only 30,000 miles left to go in the future.