Was he refusing to look at my face? That stubborn jaw, never once glancing down. How am I supposed to interpret a man who suddenly becomes gentle inside a woman’s mouth? Seoryeong felt deflated, wondering if she really had to keep doing this with a man who clearly radiated discomfort, no matter how desperate she was. It felt more like she was the one being violated… The moment that sense of futility washed over her, she spat him out. Even as she picked up the coat she had dropped on the floor, Lee Wooshin remained frozen in the same statue-like pose. She couldn’t tell what he was thinking.
“...Just forget it. What’s the point with a guy who can’t even get it up?”
Bang! Seoryeong wiped her lips angrily as she hurried down the stairs. Ugh, ugh. She stuck out her tongue, trying to get rid of the unfamiliar smell of crotch. Muttering useless curses, she stepped outside, where the cold wind blew as if to cleanse her mouth. Seoryeong checked the notification on her buzzing phone, “Arriving in 1 minute.”
She would go anywhere. Anywhere loud and dirty. The neighborhood, shrouded in darkness, echoed with the occasional dog bark. The red headlights of a taxi appeared outside the alley, and as Seoryeong, pulling her coat tighter, stepped forward… “I told you you’re not going anywhere.”
“……!”
Her entire body tilted backward. Her feet lifted, and blood rushed to her face. Her vision inverted, Seoryeong instinctively grabbed the sturdy shoulder, catching a faint scent of sweat. Her bare feet, without shoes, were visible in her peripheral vision. The man, carrying her like a sack of goods, didn’t waver at all even as she struggled. The lights on each landing flickered as they ascended the stairs.
“...No customers, right?”
Only the taxi driver, who had arrived late, mumbled blankly while looking around.
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“Ugh...! Let go of me...!”
Dragged inside, Seoryeong was immediately thrown onto the sofa. The living room was dark, and as she glared at Lee Wooshin with bewildered eyes, she saw his face flushed from where her elbow had repeatedly struck him on the stairs.
“Instructor, what is this all of a sudden...!”
“I decided it’s better for you to be ruined by me than to let you go.”
He stretched his neck from side to side, nonchalantly uttering those words. The clean and expressionless face, devoid of any emotion, felt increasingly resolute and frightening. Then, a large hand pressed down on her back, pinning her arms as if to tie them. One of her cheeks pressed against the sofa.
“What are you suddenly doing...!”
“Just lie there face down.”
He roughly pulled down her pants. Startled, Seoryeong twisted her waist, but her body, already subdued, wouldn’t move. Her pants were forced down, barely clinging to her buttocks, and her pale bottom was exposed beneath her underwear, which had been pulled off.
“If this is what you want―”
Slap!
A merciless hand struck the top of her right buttock.
“――!”
The burning sensation that spread across her skin made Seoryeong stop breathing altogether. What… now? Her mind went blank. Did I… did I really just get hit?
“Still, wouldn’t you say I’m better than those other bastards?”
“Wait...!”
“Why? You’ll get drunk and defiled in the shadows, but you don’t like this?”
“I’d rather be a stranger...!”
As she struggled to get up, there was another slap! But the fierce hand didn’t immediately move away, slowly stroking the reddened buttock. It felt like inflicting pain and then offering medicine...! Seoryeong bit her lower lip with a strange sense of defiance. Although it was a pain somewhat similar to what she had wanted, she strangely felt scared. I’m crazy, for asking Lee Wooshin. Not just anyone, but him...! Unlike what she had boldly stated, the moment her buttocks were struck, a cold feeling that this wasn’t right washed over her. While she was bewildered, another slap landed.
“Ah......!”
A stinging pain seeped beneath her skin. As she turned her head, Lee Wooshin pressed down on her neck, as if blocking her view.
“Don’t look at me. I don’t want to see your face right now.”
“Ugh...! Instructor...!”
“You said you wanted to feel pain. Then you’ve come to the right place.”
His voice was devoid of emotion.
“Instead of coming back with another bastard’s fingerprints, you’d better be hit by your instructor.”
“What......!”
“Is there anyone around here more skilled than me?”
“Ugh......!”
Slap, another throbbing pain echoed. It was a merciless assault.
“There’s no one who can beat you as well as I can. Do you know that, or not?”
Her heart sank.
“I’m the one who can hurt you the most.”
“…….”
I thought he liked me, so I had a calculated idea that he wouldn’t refuse my request. It seems it was the wrong choice. She could feel her buttocks instantly swelling. Then, Lee Wooshin stroked the reddened skin as if trying to soothe it. This guy is crazy, isn’t he...?
“He, stop it, let me go...!”
“If I let you go here, you’ll run off looking for another man. A piece of trash doesn’t have that kind of generosity.”
“……!”
Slap, her buttocks felt like they were on fire again. Lee Wooshin struck her buttocks with the same unwavering intensity. At the same time, he dragged his fingernails across her reddened bottom as if scratching it.
“How does it feel to be in pain?”
The stinging pain, like a shower of needles, lingered for a while. Every time he stroked her buttocks, the flesh slightly parted. Then, it felt like a wave spread to her genitals, as if a small hole was opening and closing. An uncomfortable frown creased her brow. Suddenly, she felt strange.
“Did it get you off?”
His hand, which had warmed up from the repeated friction, moved from her earlobe to her neck, then down her back to massage her buttocks. His touch, sensing the tears in her eyes even though she wasn’t crying, was terribly annoying. However, the sensation of her fine hairs standing on end made her lash out and push his hand away.
“Don’t, don’t touch me like that. It reminds me of my husband...!”
Hearing those words, Lee Wooshin, who had been frozen for a moment, suddenly burst into laughter. He abruptly pulled Seoryeong from her prone position and grabbed her collar. The gaze that met hers directly was fiercely sharp and blazing.
“So you shamelessly sucked my penis?”
The breath she had been holding was released along with his angry voice.
“What did I teach you to do when there’s sexual harassment or assault from fellow soldiers!”
“……!”
“Even if I made you kneel, why did you suck that fishy thing? Why did you put it in your mouth, making me want to die!”
Emotions, which had been cut off word by word, suddenly erupted like an explosion. Seoryeong flinched at the ear-splitting shout. The distorted brow of the man grew increasingly strange with each passing moment.
“You think I don’t know you were trying to do everything opposite of the sex you had with your husband?”
He spat out the words cynically, then clenched his jaw again. In an instant, he grabbed her ankles and spread her legs wide. His thick, protruding knuckles were inserted into her, between her half-removed underwear.
“Ugh...!”
It was a terrible sensation. The foreign object, feeling like it was piercing her raw flesh, was excruciatingly painful.
“You can’t even let go of that self-torture, so why can’t you let go of him? You tremble like this just thinking about Kim Hyeon, so why can’t you spit on your husband’s skin?”
The inner walls tightened so much that the shape of his fingers was imprinted within. Lee Wooshin thrust his middle finger in all directions and began to stir roughly. The sound of his wrist hitting her skin echoed. But his fingers, rummaging and poking inside without gentleness, soon withdrew, as if all of this was just a process to widen a hole enough to use.
“Of course, I can’t let go of him.”
Seoryeong retorted, pulling at the corner of her lips.
“Things you hate so much you want to kill them, you usually don’t let go of. You can forget things you love and live with, but the desire to kill, you can’t let go of it... That, you’ll never be able to let go of it...”
She laughed self-deprecatingly, as if swallowing even the blade into her stomach. The worse this sex was, the better she felt. Then, the hardened, swollen head, bulging beyond the black drawer, collided with the narrow entrance, and without warning, pierced through her.
Her vision went black as his penis sank to the root. It felt like her soft inner wall had been struck hard.
“Hngh...! Because I’ve never had anything in my life... I don’t really know what it means to let go of something... And...”
Her breath hitched, and a groan escaped her lips.
“It’s just... something that only ends when I die...”
Her dark eyes were sincere. Then, Lee Wooshin cursed softly with an unreadable expression. He propped himself up on the sofa with one hand, and with the other, he lowered her face, all the while forcing the thick shaft deeper and deeper. The weight filling her completely was overwhelming. Seoryeong weakly scratched his arm in this surreal situation. Rough breaths escaped their mouths simultaneously. And as her torn and gaping hole throbbed, causing her to groan involuntarily.
“――.”
His waist stopped abruptly without a sound. The shaft, where she could feel every ridge and vein, suddenly dislodged, then slammed back into her with a thud.
“Hngh...!”
It felt like her stomach was being pierced. The thick object that had come loose, pressing against her vaginal walls, went back in. Her body trembled as if she had been punched somewhere inside. The man, gripping her pelvis tightly, stabbed right at something inside her. The shaft retreated, only to slam back in. It was a merciless insertion.
“Your husband never pushed it in this far without warming up, did he?”
“Ugh...!”
The swollen member repeatedly pounded deep within her. The pain doubled and piled up due to the unlubricated entrance, and not even a sound escaped her parted lips. It felt like hidden nerve cords inside her vagina were being severed, but there was no pleasure, no sensation. And that was satisfying. Because that was what she wanted.
“Answer me, is this what you wanted?”
“Hah...! Yes...!”
Lee Wooshin’s movements paused momentarily at her clear answer. Ha…. He roughly swept his hair back. A bitter expression was etched on his face. He hugged her waist for a moment and lowered his head, letting out a long sigh that seemed like it would never end.
“Damn it....”
Lee Wooshin scratched his swollen entrance and pulled his penis out, then lifted Seoryeong as she was. He bit Seoryeong’s neck hard and began to move towards the bedroom. She was horrified and tried to avoid his lips, but Lee Wooshin, who had suddenly turned strange, constantly massaged her back and buttocks, which were cold with sweat. Soon, they were on the bed, and the mattress swayed. Lee Wooshin completely removed her pants and spread her legs wide. The moment his breath touched her intimate parts, Seoryeong realized what he was going to do and screamed, lifting her upper body in shock.
“I don’t want it, don’t do it...!”