# Chapter 47
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Rockherd, who is crazy about horses, is said to have led Pansion around the covered riding ground while I swam in the lake.
He could not be anything other than the devil, leading guests out in the morning and sweating.
However, it was I, not Rockherd or Pansion, who felt the fatigue.
Maybe it was because it had been a long time since I played near water, but my body felt very heavy.
Even when meal time arrived, I couldn't accurately determine whether food was going into my mouth or nose.
The atmosphere at the table wasn't that good from the start.
Rockherd and Pansion continued to talk, but I was busy cutting tomatoes with my shoulders slumped.
Nezar also emptied his plate silently without saying anything.
I was glad I didn't fake it.
After the meal, I had nothing else to do, so I picked up any book I could find and went to the bench next to the garden.
The day was so bright that I felt a little sweaty, but at least I felt much lighter than the darkness.
"It's been sunny these days."
The carriage going to Entera had already arrived in front of the castle gate, and although the goodbyes were over, Pansion's footsteps were coming towards me.
I closed the novel I was forcing into my empty mind.
Pansion took off his hat and sat down next to me.
As he approached, he smelled of wildflowers.
"It's summer now."
"It seems like only yesterday that the war ended in a dry land without even a single blade of grass, let alone a flower."
I felt that the gently rising corners of his mouth were very characteristic of him.
Seeing Pan Xion's smile shining like sunlight made me feel lighter and depressed at the same time.
As soon as Nezar finished eating, he was led by Ron's hand and returned to the castle.
And without even being able to say goodbye properly.
"I'm sorry to keep hearing this, but...
...
"I was really grateful yesterday, Duke."
"no.
Thanks to you, it was nice to be able to visit Ezelot and meet Lord Lockherd for the first time in a long time.
"After the war ended, I only went back and forth between the islands and Entera, so I had little opportunity to see them."
Unlike Rockherd, who took a long vacation and stayed in Ezelot and devoted himself to tormenting me, Pansion seemed to be very busy preparing the succession to the dukedom.
It's like you missed a day because of me.
I lowered my head in regret.
"Didn't you have plans for today?
"I'm sorry for wasting your time for no reason."
“Since I’m out, I might as well take a day off today.
"The reason I went to Deborah was to get some fresh air."
How did this man called Pansion Entera become so kind?
He was not only kind, but also sweet, kind, and even mature.
If I hadn't met Nezar, I probably would have fallen in love with this man and been fighting.
That didn't mean he was really like that, it just meant he was an amazing person.
"Little Duke."
"Yes."
"Do you already have plans to get married?"
Pan Shion looked somewhat surprised.
But the answer came immediately.
"Unfortunately, it hasn't arrived yet."
"Is there a reason you're late?" "Rick currently receives support from his parents once a day and I thought the Duke would talk about it more often."
As Rockherd was already a foster child outside the home, there was no need for the 'spirit' of the marriage to come to the fore.
In that aspect, he is truly a great person.
said Pansion, who was examining the cover of a book with his arms crossed on the bench.
"I also have stories every day.
However, I have no specific intention of getting married now.
"I'm also quite busy taking succession classes late."
You brought Pansion, who is so busy and has no time to get married, to Ezelot!
For some reason, the more we talked, the more guilt I felt.
I opened my mouth, looking at his gentle smile.
"Well then, Little Duke.
"If it's okay with you, Duke, may I borrow your name later?"
Pan Shion asked in a casual tone, as if it didn't matter.
"Where do you mean?"
"I'm breaking off my engagement."
This time the reaction was a little different.
He tilted his head slightly, then closed his mouth and blinked his eyes softly, as if pondering the meaning of what I had said.
It would be ridiculous if it were me.
Are you asking me to lend you my name to break off an engagement?
Not only was it unexpected, it was enough to make me feel rude.
After all, the thoughts in your head aren't something you just blurt out.
I spoke in a low voice, regretting my thoughtless comment.
"one...
..., no.
Please forget what I just said.
"I think I said that without thinking."
Over the last few days, we've gotten a little closer and I can't tell you what to say and what not to say.
Even if Pan Shion protested, he had nothing to say.
"no.
"Please borrow as much as you can."
However, Pansion's response was very contrary to my expectations.
"You don't need to tell me in advance.
"I'll make up any rumors I hear."
I was more confused than grateful.
In particular, the last sentence he spoke was impossible to understand.
Because I was fully aware that Pansion's personality is such that he doesn't say nonsense.
"Are you serious?"
"I'm serious."
"Aren't you being very nice to me?
No matter how much I think about it, the only thing that remains is the memory of causing trouble to the Duke...
...
."
The more time I spend with him, the more I feel that what was once a delusional prediction becomes closer to certainty.
This was especially true when he looked directly into my eyes, filled with something warm like now.
In fact, I was already more than half sure.
Is this how Nezar feels when he looks at me?
My heart pounds when I see this and I feel ashamed...
...
.
"Can't I be nice to you?"
This excitement is transferred.
I smiled slightly at Pansion's words and turned my head.
I thought I couldn't bear to say no to that face.
***
Nezar Audrine Kabal is strange.
Rockherd was sure he had some problems.
It wasn't from today and something had been out of focus since yesterday.
The exact time was last night, after the wild elk returned home.
No, to be more precise, it started when the moose, which should have returned home alone, came with something close to it.
Rockherd never forgot Nezhar's face, which was bloodied as soon as Pansion got out of the carriage.
Those eyes, which were not easily seen even on the battlefield, were aimed precisely at Pansion.
Still, he is a man who was once a comrade in arms.
Was the disappointment with Kate so great?
It was worth it.
Recently, Nezar was unable to spare even a moment of time except for minimal sleep.
I took time out of my busy schedule to see Kate, but I was actually right next to her...
...
.
"Tsk, I should have realized quickly instead of being so lazy."
Rockherd shook his head and stepped into the shade of the landscaped trees near the training grounds.
And I was surprised when I realized that someone else was waiting in the shadows.
"Fuck."
Ron, who was standing there with an expressionless expression, responded to the terse expletives that reflected Rockherd's feelings.
"In my personal opinion."
Not only did he appear like a ghost, but what are you talking about out of nowhere?
Rockherd, who was panting while holding his racing heart, frowned.
"There definitely seems to be something wrong.
"Otherwise, Your Highness wouldn't be able to act like an idiot."
When I asked what he meant, it was a story related to Nezar.
Well, Ron, who has been following Nezar for a long time, couldn't have talked about anything other than his prince.
I agreed, but it was obvious that if I just said what I was thinking, I would be yelled at.
Ron himself was a loudmouth and looked at others as if they were going to kill him when they said something he didn't like.
Just like now.
...
...
No, why are you looking at me like that now?
Rockherd opened his mouth in sudden anger.
"Hey, Ron.
"Why do you look at me like that?"
"Please go quickly and ask what's going on."
Rockherd was scared and his shoulders were shaking.
"are you crazy?
"Obviously I'm going to piss you off again, but are you asking me to add firewood?"
"So, are you going to leave Your Highness like this for a few days?"
It was none of my business.
It must have been very tiring for Rockherd, who was trapped there all day, but it was all he needed to pay attention and take refuge.
"In this state?"
Of course, I wasn't used to Nezar's current state.
There were times when his sensitivity reached its peak and he could barely breathe next to him, but Nezar had never experienced such a stupid situation before.
"continue?"
"Ah Shit...
...
.
Okay, I'm coming, I'm coming!
Rockherd gritted his teeth and stepped out of the shadows.
The target is Prince Nezar, who is unilaterally pushing the new knight.
The sweat of the young knight fighting Nezar was not sweat from exercise, but cold sweat from tension.
Nezar, who had visited the 2nd Knight, seemed to have no intention of continuing to harass the 3rd Knight and, as always, was venting his anger by fighting.
One way or another, it was time to start mediation.
Because lunch time was almost over.
"Hey, Nezar."
Sweat-soaked black hair pauses.
The face I found had a dark coldness under the eyes.
Recently, I thought I was overreacting, but it seemed like I was pleased that I hadn't passed out.
"A love fight is like cutting water with a knife."
It was impossible for me to say anything that would make my stomach hurt because I was so weak.
Now there was no more room to talk.
No matter how much I thought about it, I couldn't understand it.
He has the ability to take the throne, but why can't he have a woman at his disposal?
And the other person is Katrina Ezelott, who is also in love with him.
"What fight?"
Nezar's question was half irritated and half irritated.
"I'm telling you, don't bother people who have nothing to do with an issue you haven't handled properly."
"you're right.
"His Majesty is not like you now."
Ron, who had already come to the side, gave Rockherd advice.
Nezhar raised his brow and handed the sword he was brandishing to Ron.
Perhaps because he didn't have the energy to express his emotions, his expression was still stiff, only with his eyebrows slightly furrowed.
"Say it in words.
"Don't be annoying."
It's hard to pretend to be generous when you're already angry.
"Let me guess?" His Majesty Nezhar himself took the time to go to Ezelot last night, but was probably caught off guard by Miss Nezhar.
Kate."
At this point, it was safe to say that Ron Minerva had a third eye.
That too, somewhere on Nezar's body.
Otherwise, I would not have been able to know Nezar's situation so deeply.
"Seeing as Your Highness's reaction was more intense than usual, it seems like it wasn't just a matter of being caught in the wind.
Hmm, did Miss Kate bring a man with her?
He's probably not an insignificant person...
There are few people who would make you nervous.
Count Amasra?
Or is it the Minor Duke of Entera?"
It was a prediction I couldn't help but admire.
As Rockherd inwardly applauded, the new driver, who had been watching, fled.
Nezar looked at Ron's face without even looking in that direction.
"Is the reason my mood is at rock bottom right now because I like Kate as a woman?"
"Is there a need to express it at such length?
"You can just say love."
If you look at it this way, Ron also says embarrassing things so casually.
In response to the energetic response, Nezar straightened his back and crossed his arms, catching his breath.
"So you're saying it's because I love Kate?"
Ron nodded enthusiastically at the question that came back.
Just looking at the burning eyes, it seemed like the love was for Ron, not Nezar.
Nezar, who was blinking slowly, wondering what he was thinking, sighed deeply.
I couldn't understand either.
Although he is so good at reading other people's minds, he is frustratingly unable to understand his own feelings.
The voice that finally came out was as sharp as the blade of a toothless sword.
"I'm going to walk away.
Was this love really that bad?