# Chapter 44
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Pansion looked into my eyes for a moment and asked in a low and clear voice.
"It looks like something is going on.
So shall we go for a quick walk?
"The moon is up, so if you slowly head towards the castle along the river, it won't be so dark."
There was nothing special happening, but I didn't have the confidence to face Mrs.
Sepia at that moment.
It was because the darkness in the hall seemed like it wouldn't go away and would continue to bother me.
'It's just my opinion, but I'm sure it's not an illusion that the young woman feels excluded.
I think the problem is not with you, but with someone else.
Come to think of it, Pansion also said something similar to Madame Sepia.
I said even if there was a problem, at least it wasn't mine.
What is the problem Mrs.
Sepia was talking about?
But even if I listened to this for a hundred days, I couldn't change anything because I, the person involved, didn't know.
"It's strangely cold tonight.
"Summer has arrived."
As Pansion said, the paved road along the river was very bright, perhaps due to the moonlight reflecting off the water.
Pan Shion stopped walking and tried to take off her coat when she inadvertently raised her hand to sweep her arm.
I was able to figure out what his intentions were right away.
Because Nezar has always been like this.
I picked up the half-naked coat and draped it over his shoulders.
"you're fine.
As I continue walking, the cold air seems to get a little cooler.
"It will be so hot that you may be sweating profusely by the time you reach the castle."
"Can you cool off as soon as you say it's cold?"
"Hmm, I didn't know that either."
My bare skin was still cool in the night air, but that didn't mean I could receive more consideration from Pansion.
Anyway, I had a fiancé now.
Pan Shion accepted my nonsense without saying anything.
The atmosphere between him and me, which was infinitely soft, seemed somewhat rigid.
As the conversation calmed down and no words were exchanged, useless unhelpful thoughts continued to fill my head.
Among them, the highlight was the sensation of warm lips touched by my fingers.
Ahh!
Even if it comes to mind, why does it come to mind when Pansion is by my side?
I tried to say something to vent the heat that felt like it was going to explode.
"Dad, I think Little Duke Pansion is exactly the same as my first impression."
good.
At this level, it is an impeccable passing grade.
In the past, whenever I was overwhelmed with thoughts, I would often babble nonsense, but now at least I don't need to blush.
"What was my first impression?
"After hearing this, I'm a little curious."
Pan Shion's soft voice carried the river breeze and tickled her hair.
It's his first impression.
I stuttered a somewhat blurry memory from the past.
"I've never seen a blonde man as good as you.
It was the first time I visited the ancient Knights Templar, and the season was late spring, like now.
There you were, at the end of a long hallway, with white sunlight falling on it.
The eyes we found were more transparent than the purple of an oil painting and darker than the purple of a watercolor.
When the gypsophila was handed to me, the small work was static, emotional and vivid, as if it had come out of a painting.
There wasn't a single conversation between us...
...
I felt you were a knight.
“It looked like it was going to happen.”
When I said that, it sounded more like a description than a first impression.
In fact, the current Pansion Entera was no different from the phrases I recited.
"Is it right to say it this way?
Strangely, it looks like I'm painting a still life called Pansion Entera."
There was a sound of laughter.
Since I wasn't smiling, it was clear it was from Pansion.
The pace of walking one step ahead of me gradually slowed down.
When I came to my senses, I noticed that Pansion, who was walking next to me, was walking a little slower.
This time I matched his pace.
Thanks to that, our march slowed down to a crawling level.
"When the young lady sees me, it seems like I'm bigger than I really am.
"I don't think I dare follow."
"That means it's really cool."
"So can I have a little confidence?"
"Trust?
Are you talking about the face?
Of course.
"There is no woman who would not fall in love with the Duke's handsome face."
Pan Shion's expression reflected in the light didn't look very good.
Was I being too rude?
"I always feel that you are very honest.
"You can lift people up and bring them down with just one word."
I felt an inexplicable feeling of guilt at the slight bitterness at the end of the words.
Does this mean that being honest is not good?
But that doesn't mean you can't lie and say you should try harder just because you're ugly.
"As for me?"
It was never like this before, but strangely, his facial expressions and words started to bother me a little.
It was similar to observing Nezar's thoughts.
"How was I?
"Tell me."
Pan Shion opened her eyes slightly at my question.
"You, I mean...
...
."
therefore?
"How should I explain this?
It's like playing in nature...
...
."
Playing in nature?
For a first impression of an aristocratic woman, things didn't start out very well.
"A cat running through nature?"
Pansion's voice, when describing it, was as serious as if he were holding a strategic meeting in a war barracks.
Wow, a cat running through nature.
"Isn't the cat so cute?
"Am I so cute?"
The reason I missed it while saying it was because even when I heard it, the self-love seemed extreme.
I felt heat rising to my face.
Pan Shion must have seen my embarrassment in his eyes, and the muscles on his face, which had always been smooth and calm, relaxed playfully.
"Yes, it's cute.
"Of course I thought you knew."
Naturally, I thought about hyenas, although I liked them, and even more about rhinos.
"Well, in that case, you don't need to say it's cute."
"You call a cute person cute, so what do you say?"
It can't be done.
We have to stop here.
I had been teased by Nezar for a long time, so I was very familiar with this pattern.
At times like this, I had to break the flow by saying something that would suddenly cool the atmosphere.
"The Little Duke is also cute."
"...
...one."
As expected, Pansion's reaction was not very good.
He scratched his neck with an embarrassed face and turned his head towards Count Deborah's castle, which was gradually approaching.
I said while looking at Pan Shion's tall profile.
"Hey Duke."
"Yes, please speak."
"Has the Little Duke ever tried to seduce anyone?"
There was no response for a while.
I looked at his cheek until his lips parted.
It was an issue that remained on my mind even after I broke up with Lily.
Pan Shion cleared her throat slightly and opened her mouth too late.
"This is a very random question.
"I think you've been worrying about this problem a lot lately."
"It's still not much."
"I don't have that experience yet, so I can't give you any advice."
I don't know about other men, but I felt like Pan Shion could do it.
Won't women seduce you even if you stand still?
"So if I like someone, I can try to get them to like me back?"
"You can do it."
Contrary to his stern tone, Pan Shion's expression was very serious.
How to force words that don't need to be said.
"I think I would like to do that.
No, I want to.
This is strange.
He was talking as if he had someone he liked.
I heard from Rockherd the other day that he had a secret lover, so he could be referring to that woman.
Who could it be?
We soon arrived in front of the gate of Count Deborah's castle.
"I'll hire a carriage and go back."
With those words, I had to hold the hem of Pansion's clothes again.
That's because Nezar's advice to be careful with your appearance came to mind.
“No, it’s because of me, so I’ll ask my wife for a favor and go back.
"Please wait here for a moment."
It would be very strange if he rented a carriage for me late at night.
Thanks to Pansion's acceptance of my request, I was able to go to Deborah's Castle, where the fire had not yet gone out, and rent a carriage.
It was clearly shameless.
Even asking for a favor, it was very difficult to lift my head.
But Mrs.
Sépia didn't ask any questions other than: 'I think you enjoyed getting to know the city.' Instead, I could breathe a sigh of relief because he readily accepted my request.
"Mistress Katrina."
It was at that moment that Deborah's servant opened the carriage door.
When Ms.
Sepia called, I made eye contact with her.
"I tried to avoid talking about it because I thought it was a pointless intrusion, but I'm telling you because I think it might be an important issue for you."
What does this mean?
I was able to understand the meaning through the following words.
"Why are women having a hard time with you?" It seems that Lady Charon Entera has a great influence.
"She doesn't seem to like you socializing."
Charon?
An unexpected name suddenly appeared and boggled my mind.
What an absurd feeling that was, I asked back, without even thinking about saving face.
"Why?"
"well.
You'll have to find out.
"I don't know what happened between Lady Charon and Lady Katrina."
Mrs.
Sepia sighed softly.
“Just go back now.
"If it's too late, the road will be dangerous."
I thanked him again and got into the carriage, but my mind felt blank.
I didn't think anything about it.
Does Charon hate my social activities? why?
"...
...Wait, stop here.
"I have someone to accompany me."
The carriage stopped and Pansion, who was in front of the castle gate, got on.
When he was about to say something, he made eye contact with me and closed his lips silently.
Although it was dark and difficult to see, its calm atmosphere was clearly conveyed.
Was it noticeable?
I felt dizzy, so I held my forehead and lowered my head.
"Thank you very much today, Duke.
You worked so hard because of me.
Now let's go to Entera.
"I will return to Ezelot after I bring the Duke to you."
"no.
"I guess I'll have to go home to Ezelot immediately."
Pan Shion's voice was polite and cautious.
Considering him, it would have been right to refuse and go to Entera, but for some reason, I didn't have the confidence to see Charon.
"Can I?"
"of course.
Please get some sleep.
"I'll wake you up when I get there."
I thanked him for his consideration and closed my eyes.
However, I couldn't fall asleep due to my complicated feelings.
The act of blindly believing Mrs.
Sepia's words was a breach of trust by Charon.
On what basis did she point to Charon?
Charon is my closest friend in name and reality.
But what if what your wife says is right?
Assuming this is correct, the next important thing is intention.
However, when I thought of Charon as always, I couldn't even understand his intention.
Shit, should I just ask myself?
Would that be better?
After repeating the accident at the scene, I arrived in Ezelot.
I didn't know what I was thinking when I got out of the carriage.
Rockherd descended in front of the castle as if he had seen the carriage coming, but as it turned out he was not alone.
"That's a combination I never thought of."
I was with Nezar, who looked tired.