# Chapter 42
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"I just wanted to thank you very much for coming to my hall today.
Lady Charon often comes here for tea, but Lady Ezelott is famous for being very difficult to find, right?
"Your presence will be a monumental event that will mean the prosperity of our hall."
Isn't that too heavy?
While covering her mouth and smiling awkwardly, Mrs.
Deborah stood up and rang the doorbell, attracting attention.
"Everyone!
This month, Lady Katrina Ezelott attended the salon.
As this precious person is in our hall, I suddenly remember the past about this time five years ago when we started with just five people.
"We'll discuss the details at dinner, but let's all give a round of applause to our new participants!"
I only came to see the liver for one day, but suddenly I felt like I had become a member for life.
Making connections is something that requires you to be shameless.
I stood up with a smile on my face and calmly tilted my head towards the women who were applauding enthusiastically.
I could feel it from the context of the invitation, but it seemed like Ms.
Deborah wanted to keep me by her side so she could rise to a social status.
I think it's really amazing.
Some people are dissatisfied with their position and keep trying to break the ceiling, but on the other hand, I want the world around to be peaceful and complete.
She sat me down and sat next to me.
"From now on, you can call me Sepia."
"Thank you, Ms.
Sepia.
"Ma'am, feel free to call me Katrina from now on."
Madame Sepia said, smiling softly.
"I understand that you declined our invitation three times.
You may not be interested enough and I was very disappointed, but I sent out invitations every month just in case.
"Is there a reason you decided to participate this month?"
The goal is to find a beautiful, experienced woman that Nezar can tempt.
I responded, remembering Charon's advice to speak normally and not be nervous.
"Your wife's salon is very famous, right?
"I was curious how many amazing women would gather there because only beautiful women were invited."
Mrs.
Sépia laughed a little at my words.
"Hehe, so what do you think?"
I looked around the inside of the room very slowly.
Each of them is a beautiful woman considered one of the best in the system.
To be more specific, would it be at the time of Charon's claws?
Is it because I was dating a beautiful woman who was so perfect and beautiful?
In fact, it did not reach the level of expectations.
Of course, I didn't say it directly.
"Very good.
"It's my first time participating in a special event like this, so it's a little strange, but I feel more comfortable because I'm a group of women."
"By the way, you didn't move from your seat."
I couldn't help but be a little surprised by Mrs.
Sepia's response.
I thought they were busy chatting with other nobles, but that meant they paid attention to me from beginning to end.
"Um, that's...
...
."
Let alone worrying about where to throw the bait, it's why women don't approach in the first place.
I thought it could be a good opportunity.
Wouldn't a woman like Dona Sephia, who is good at social activities, be able to point out my problems?
It hurt my pride to blow on my private parts on our first date, but you never know when we will meet Ms.
Sephia again.
As it was an opportunity, I decided to open my mouth.
“I don’t think other people want to talk to me.
When I talk to him, he doesn't last more than four words.
It happened three times and I was so heartbroken that I ended up staying by Lady Charon's side all day.
Is that right, young lady?
Charon was already sitting next to Madame Sepia.
Charon, who noticed my taciturn voice for a moment, soon frowned with a sad expression, as if he realized my intention.
"I can't say no.
How lovely and kind Lady Kate...
...
. ah."
The sigh that escaped me as I held my forehead couldn't have been so heavy.
It didn't feel like he was lying for me, and I think Charon felt that way too.
As expected, my sociability is not only hitting rock bottom, but also going down to the basement?
It certainly looks like you had a good chat with Lily Amasra and Prince Andrew.
The confidence I gained over the past few days plummeted in an instant.
"Oh!
You're clearly misunderstanding.
How angelic and kind you all are.
"Maybe it was bad timing."
"So could you help me just once?
No matter how much I think about it, I can't figure out what the problem is.
"It would be great if you could give me some advice."
Mrs.
Sephia, who seemed a little embarrassed by my words, nodded quickly.
"Of course I have to help.
"Just say the word."
I came to Sépia, but my time was too precious to return like this without any income.
It wasn't a bad opportunity.
In addition to the fact that the salon was disappointing, Madame Sépia herself was a veteran considered one of the greatest figures in the social world.
I got up silently and walked over to the group talking near the piano.
These were the same women who talked to me at the tea Charon prepared for me.
"Ah, did you hear this story?
His Highness Andrew this time...
...
."
"What are you talking about that's so interesting?"
When I intervened, the number of people from three naturally increased to four.
The woman who was speaking enthusiastically slowly closes her mouth.
It was exactly from the moment I became aware of my existence.
She continued stuttering with a look of shame on anyone's face.
“Oh, His Highness Andrew is going hunting this time… ….”
The woman who spoke something gibberish soon disappeared from the room, led by the people she was talking to.
It's really hard to get used to this feeling of being ostracized.
What's the problem?
Is she so beautiful that I can't even talk to her?
Or is your breath so bad you can't stand it?
The next group was the same.
The women who were participating in a competition while cutting cream cakes into pieces openly looked at Charon and Mrs.
Sepia, crying, and then disappeared into the distance as well.
They left me alone in the chair.
I was slowly getting irritated.
Should we just beat up Nezar's lover and all?
I returned to the seat next to Mrs.
Sepia, sinking into the lake of self-destruction.
The wife had her arms crossed and a very subtle expression on her face.
"You've definitely seen me wandering around and not being able to fit in anywhere, right?
If you don't mind, I'd like to hear your advice.
I don't sit still because I like...
...
.
"What's wrong with me?"
This was clearly not the intention, but at this moment, even the most undisciplined country had no choice but to fall into trouble.
"None of us are free from problems."
Dona Sépia responded in a firm voice and looked intently into my eyes.
"It's just a matter of understanding and coexistence.
It's just my opinion, but I'm sure it's no illusion that the young woman feels excluded.
"I think the problem is not with you, but with someone else."
"On the other hand?"
Mrs.
Sépia seemed very worried about what was so serious.
I wanted to rush in and demand an answer, but I suppressed my instinct to go crazy and relaxed the tense muscles in my back.
"...
...Like I said, this is purely my personal opinion.
I can't open my mouth easily for fear of hurting the lady's feelings.
"Please understand my feelings."
"No way...
...
."
"Oh!
Now it's time to prepare dinner.
As most people didn't eat lunch, we postponed meal times a little.
"I have to go out for a moment to check on you, then I'll see you later."
Mrs.
Sépia interrupted me as if she were running away and quickly left the room.
***
So there is only one conclusion.
I couldn't contain my anger and ran out of the room.
After calming Charon, who hurriedly got up and insisted on following me, I left the castle and walked down an alley at the end of the city center.
This was because he didn't want to cause more harm to Charon, who was always in the background because he was thinking about me.
At this point, there was only one answer.
"my...
, Does your breath really stink?
"Whose breath is it?"
At that moment, an unexpected person suddenly appeared from behind.
"evil!"
I held my heart against my suddenly protruding head and exhaled sharply.
The woman with long, curly hair and wearing riding gear was none other than Lily Amasra, the woman who constantly asked about Rick's well-being at the gym.
"I never thought we would meet here!
I feel very lucky today, don't I?
How have you been, young lady?
There's no way the salon is already over.
And what do you mean by bad breath?
Unfortunately, I couldn't afford to be distracted by her right now.
I was as excited as ever today.
I resumed my stopped steps and responded in a weak voice.
"Yeah, I don't know why I'm here either."
"Are you feeling really bad?
If you don't mind, dump it all on me!
I won't tell anyone and I'll keep it a secret to myself.
"Even though it seems like that, there isn't a single girl my age around me."
I'm so proud.
Was this how Nezar felt when he looked at me when I was young?
I looked down and looked at the luggage Lily held in her arms.
"What is this thing?"
"Ah, this is the book I bought during the day to give to the lady."
"book?
"Here?"
The distance between Amasra and Deborah took more than two hours on horseback.
Was the limited edition released just for Deborah?
"Well, actually, I was going to Mrs.
Deborah's salon.
I thought about it, but I couldn't find it in the end.
I find this position very difficult...
The book I received was as heavy as I thought.
Should I read it before I die?
I smiled at him, trying to erase my shocked expression.
"thank you.
I don't know if I'll read it, in fact I probably won't, but I'll definitely put it on my personal shelf."
Lily smiled happily and pushed the luxuriously packed box inside her purse into her purse.
"What is this box?"
“This?
This is a gift for Professor Rick.
Deborah has a famous manufacturer of handmade fountain pens.
I was trying to buy a fountain pen to give him...
...
."
Lily's face turned red when she said this, as if she was about to explode at any moment.
Is Rick Ezelott that good?
It was a love that I couldn't understand, falling in love with one of so many men.
"What do you like about Brother Rick?"
"He He.
"Didn't you ask that question last time?"
I think it was like that, but I wasn't interested in it, so it didn't stick in my memory.
"He was the only person who supported me when I was struggling with my graduation thesis.
"I probably wouldn't have graduated without Professor Rick."
"I heard it has good reviews at the gym."
"It's a very recent thing and it's actually not that good.
"It's just the beginning."
The bitter emotion that spread across Lily's face struck deep into my heart.
"Maybe it's because I received help in the most difficult times, but the teacher's face and voice come to mind every day.
So I decided!
"The day I become a student who is not ashamed of my teacher, I will confess to him in person!"
I thought Lily's words were very selfish.
"What about your brother's doctor?
It is not a very pleasant situation for the interested party to be pursued by someone they don't like.
"Aren't you thinking too much about yourself?"
Whenever I think about Nezar, this is the question that always follows me like a tail.
It's uncomfortable to want affection from someone who doesn't like you.
The problem is that I realized this fact from a very young age.
"As expected, you are blood related to Professor Rick.
"Everything you say is so logical and realistic!"
It doesn't seem particularly logical.
Lily looked around with a blurry face, as if she was thinking for a moment, then opened her mouth again.
"But I haven't heard the teacher say directly, 'I don't like you.' "Maybe it's still okay?"
Ahaha.
The embarrassed laugh that left his lips decorated the streets.
"So I'm going to keep trying to get noticed, at least until I hear a rejection.
Constantly showing off, worrying and suffering alone.
I'm so embarrassed to say this in front of the lady...
...
.
"I love the teacher so much that it's driving me crazy."
Effort?
My face twitched at the unfamiliar word.
By effort, do you mean that it's okay to try hard to woo him?