# Chapter 37
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Hearing Tuld's words, I pulled the door handle again.
The old brown wooden door just rattled and didn't move.
"Well, what should I do?
"I have no place to kill time."
“If it’s okay, would you like to attend the graduation festival?
"I graduated from the academy, so I'm good at geography."
It was absolutely impossible.
Do you want to go to a place full of youth and vitality?
Just thinking about it made my whole body tired.
"no.
I'm more interested in the Academy's library than outside.
On the way, there was a small office upstairs...
...
."
"Then come on.
"Not a bad way to kill time."
"Are you sure you don't mind?
If you feel bored, Sir Tuld, come and see the festival.
"I'll be quiet in the office."
Tuld let out an excited laugh and continued on.
"On the surface, it may seem like I have developed books and skills, but the Imperial Academy's swordsmanship club is not a place where you can graduate just by using your body well.
I am somewhat familiar with the book.
"Don't worry, just go."
Are you familiar with books?
Thinking about Rockherd, it was a statement that could never be trusted.
Rockherd, whose expression made it look like he picked up a rag every time he touched the paper, could not be a friend of books.
Thanks to Tuld's kindness and deceit, I didn't have to go out into the busy streets.
As I had to act as an advisor, I couldn't read cooking recipes like I used to, so I looked on the shelf and tried to choose the cover with the most plausible title.
"Oh, do you want to borrow that book now?"
It was at that moment that the voice of an unknown woman was heard.
I turned my back and pulled out a surprisingly thick book that looked to be about a foot long.
There stood a red-haired beauty with blinking eyes as big as glass.
"no.
Do you need this?"
The woman said with an embarrassed smile in response to my answer.
"This is the book I have been researching in all the libraries and studies at the academy for several days...
...
."
"Take it."
There seem to be more than enough books besides this one.
I handed over the book without hesitation, but for some reason, the movement of my hand when I picked it up was slow.
I looked up to see if there was any problem, and the woman who had carefully pushed back her thick, wavy hair opened her trembling lips.
"By any chance, are you Lady Katrina Ezelot?"
I was so scared that I almost dropped the thick book in my hand.
I shook my head, brushing aside the fact that I was supposed to act as Nezar's aide.
"How can I...
...
."
"Three, my God!
"Oh my God, oh my God!"
But the reaction was much more intense than I expected.
What is this?
"Oh, I was very reserved, wasn't I? sorry.
I was so happy that I had to apologize.
My name is Lily Amasra.
He looked so much like Professor Rick that I couldn't recognize him.
Have you heard of me?
"Ho, maybe Professor Rick mentioned that?"
Lily Amasra.
I couldn't know, because she was the woman Lockherd said was Nezar's ideal type!
I responded coldly, without trying to calm the feeling of competition that suddenly arose.
"no."
But this beautiful woman is Nezar's ideal type.
In an instant, my mind entered a state of rapid confusion.
Does it matter what kind of personality you have as long as you're smart?
I felt that my competitiveness was decreasing as time went on.
Of course, it's none of my business if I fall.
Normally, women of the same age wouldn't be able to open their mouths properly due to the pressure, but I didn't feel uncomfortable at all when I was talking so loud to myself.
"really?
Yet he mentioned Lily Amasra in passing, or praised her as an excellent student...
...
."
"no."
The woman, Lily's expression instantly became full of disappointment and depression.
I responded only based on facts, but I feel like I unintentionally became the perpetrator.
"Otherwise, the first woman to graduate from the Physics Department was your student...
...
."
"Do you know Brother Rick?"
I felt that if I left him like this, he would start reciting personal stories that I wasn't even curious about, so I hastily interrupted him.
Lily, whose face was flushed red at my question, opened her mouth.
"Yes, I was your student.
Although I have already graduated, I visited my alma mater for the first time in a long time to give a speech to the graduates."
"Then why don't you go see your brother in person?
"If you ask me, I have nothing to tell you."
I think my words were quite explicit.
In an instant, Lily changed from a blush to a bright apple red and raised her hand to cover her face.
"I am...
...
."
It definitely sounded like he was moving his lips, but I couldn't hear what he was saying because he was mumbling.
"I'm sorry, but I can't hear anything.
Please speak a little louder...
...
."
Lily took a deep breath at my words and screamed a little later.
"I chase him so much that he runs away every time I make eye contact with him!"
The scream was so loud that my ears tingled as I stood in front of it.
I raised my head briefly and looked at Tuld's profile sitting in the chair.
Fortunately, he was dozing off.
I cleared my throat a little and opened my mouth.
...
...Wait, were you chasing Rick around?
"Why the hell?"
"Why?
What is the reason why a woman pursues a man?
It's because she falls in love at first sight!
Despite his extremely young age, he has a tremendous ability to become a professor at the Imperial Academy, knowledge as deep as the ocean, and even an elegant appearance and gentlemanly demeanor...
....
"There's no reason not to fall in love, right?"
It wasn't wrong, but I couldn't easily believe it.
I fell in love with that hard trunk.
It seemed like the world was vast and my tastes were diverse.
If a man is capable, handsome and has the air of a gentleman, shouldn't he be on Nezar's level?
Lily suddenly ran away somewhere, not paying attention to my uncomfortable expression.
When she returned, she was carrying a small note with something written on it.
"Here is the address of the mansion where I live.
"I'm currently preparing to enroll in graduate school."
Although it was heavy, he said it with shining eyes, so I couldn't help but agree with him.
"Well, I understand."
"yes!
Then, when you return to Ezelot, you must write me a letter.
You know, right?
No matter what the story is.
Whether it's chatting behind the scenes in an unlucky social group or cursing His Highness the Crown Prince, I will keep it a secret for the rest of my life.
You know, right?
Will you send it to me?"
Even though I couldn't spit on a smiling face, I had no choice but to express my approval at Lily's expectant gaze.
“Ha, I think it was a good idea to stop by the headquarters office.
To take advantage of the opportunity to meet Lady Ezelot...
...
.
I have to make a speech now.
I will be waiting, please contact me.
"Of course!"
Lily, who quickly spat out what she wanted to say, disappeared like the wind before my eyes.
Thanks to that, I felt like an idiot and had to put the book I had in my hands back on the shelf.
When I turned my back, Tuld was looking at me with wide eyes.
"...
...Did you hear?"
Tuld's expression as he answered my question was literally the epitome of embarrassment and discomfort.
"Yes."
Shit.
Hey, this isn't my fault.
This is because Lily screamed loudly for him to leave this world.
I held my throbbing forehead and let out a long breath.
Tuld knew who I was, so there was no need to pretend I was holding a thick book.
However, that didn't mean that this library had books worth checking out, like cooking recipes, plant guides, or insect guides.
I picked up a college physics textbook and flipped through Rick's course.
Contrary to what I vaguely thought, the physics equations here were very long, complex and difficult.
It wasn't an equational algebra method, and although it was weak, it was a world where magic was still alive, so there were very few parts that looked similar.
This is why only children from high-ranking families can learn.
It seemed like it would take 10 years, let alone 6, to learn properly.
Studying for 10 years at the Imperial Academy, which had a poor scholarship system, meant being rich.
I can't believe I have to make up for 10 years of being busy and having fun.
There is absolutely no way to make myself smarter.
"...
...
"This?"
good!
I'm completely giving up.
Instead of wasting time, which I don't know how long it would take, it seemed better to stay in touch with Lily and continue to praise Nezar.
...
...
But that woman also openly appealed to Rick, saying she had a crush on him.
"Kate!"
When I heard the finger snap right in front of me, I suddenly came to my senses and closed the book reflexively.
When I took a deep breath and lifted my chin, Nezar was sitting in the empty seat next to me.
"Are you sleepy?
Just looking at their expressions, it looks like they defeated a dragon somewhere."
I shook my head and pushed the closed book away.
"no!
What is a dragon?
But why is Nezar here?
You can come like this now...
...
."
After speaking naturally, I closed my mouth and looked around.
Fortunately, the only people in the study were me, Nezar, and Tuld.
"You can leave now.
"Because I did everything."
"What about the graduation ceremony?
"You came all this way and you're not going to show up?"
"It's all about getting to know Andrew.
It's disrespectful to the organizers to suddenly show up when it's not an official schedule.
Could you?"
"yes."
“Kiol, follow from behind with Infirno.
"While maintaining a reasonable distance."
"Yes."
If I wasn't going to participate in the festival, I wouldn't need to be an advisor.
Nezar frowned as he checked the cover of the book I was reading.
He lightly tossed a book the size of my forearm onto the counter and reached out to me.
"You read everything.
"Come on now."
I held Nezar's hand, feeling half asleep.
It wasn't until I left the office and the building that I fully realized that my skin was touching his.
I calmly calmed my racing heart and walked behind him.
The outside was packed with students, graduates and current visitors.
A heavily armed plaza of graduation caps, graduation gowns, champagne, fireworks, beer and noise filled the ground where I stood.
The academy's graduation ceremony was not a banquet for the nobles to save face.
The lively atmosphere was not familiar, but familiar.
I felt like the sensations from my previous life were coming back to me.
"Is this the first time you've been in a crowded place?
"I'm not even a kid, so I keep looking around."
Nezar whispered, pulling my hand closer to him.
"Is that so?"
He slightly raised the corners of his mouth and slowly slowed down his walking speed.
"Yes, he must have frequently attended banquets and social gatherings while I was away."
"Well, absolutely not.
"Not to mention social gatherings, the fact that I attended the banquet in the first place can be counted on one hand."
Nezar's eyebrows narrowed slightly.
“I didn’t even know I was looking around.
“I just think the atmosphere in the gym was a little new.”
I've been pretending nothing happened, but I hate crowded places.
Especially when the eyes on me started to enlarge one by one, a cold sweat started to run down my back.
There was no other reason.
This was because it felt like the moment I lost my life in the previous life was vividly relived before my eyes.
But strangely, when I was with Nezar, I didn't feel uncomfortable in crowded places.
I felt it during the victory celebration party, but just having him by my side gave me a tremendous sense of stability.
I felt like I depended on Nezar much more than I thought.
I can't say it's a very good feeling.
Because it was confirmed to me that I could only completely escape it if I grew up mentally, or rather, became stable.