# Chapter 2
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Chapter 1
Remembering my past life does not mean that my identity has changed.
I was still Katrina Ezelott, I hated the paprika on my plate and I was afraid of sleeping alone late at night.
It still happened that the end of the book was full of scribbles during the literacy sessions, and the attitude of the tutor towards those days and the attitude of the maid who entered the room to help with the bath were the same, as if she were dealing with a wild cat.
What changed around this time was that his behavior, which used to act like a child, became a little more mature.
Have I finally made progress on my personality?
Even when I looked at the maid standing next to the sofa, my violent desires did not boil nor did my tongue tingle.
It was a change that made me realize how much I lived like an unrestrained colt.
Just because I became calmer, every day in the count's castle became very peaceful.
The appearance of the employees was also the same.
Most people commented that the atmosphere around my room, which always felt like I was walking along a thorny path, had become as elegant as the scent of magnolia.
However, not everyone in the castle reacted this way.
In particular, male siblings who lived as strangers in the same house behaved four times more noisily than usual, as if they had witnessed an incident.
"Kate, what did you eat wrong?"
"Rick, speak carefully in front of your mother."
At Eden's command, Rick Ezelot's lips pressed together tightly.
Huh, he's been messing with me since yesterday.
When I secretly stuck out my tongue to avoid Eden's eyes, Rick, who was chewing his salad like he was chewing meat, Rick's eyes widened.
What if you look at me like that?
I showed my tongue once again.
"Kate."
Eden, who also had eyes in the back of her head, scolded me in a stern voice.
Perhaps it was because of his sense of duty as the firstborn, but Eden tended to be more strict than usual when his father was away.
If it were me two days ago, it would be meal time and I would think, 'Why are you doing this and that to me!' It was clear that he shouted: 'Don't order me around if you're not my father!'
But now that I was the new Katrina, there was no need to be an empty-headed girl with nothing to see.
With that in mind, she smiled brightly at Eden like a daughter of a historical count's family.
"I'm sorry, brother.
I did it because Rick kept teasing me.
From now on, I'll eat in silence."
As soon as he finished speaking, he gently cut the veal steak and placed it in his mouth.
It may be an illusion, but Eden's expression when she met him for a moment looked as shaken as Rick's before he started screaming.
For a few minutes there were no words, just the sound of clinking dishes.
Just as I was about to continue eating with such perfect etiquette that even the tutor would cry, I heard a small sigh coming from the seat right in front of me.
Even without looking up, I could recognize whose voice it was.
The second son was Rockherd Ezelot.
"Hey, tomboy.
What kind of change of heart has happened?
Because of you, my throat is blocked and I can't eat meat.
"If Nezar doesn't behave like a human being, will they break off the engagement?"
"Yes, that's exactly what I wanted to say."
When Rockherd opened his mouth, Rick intervened as if he had been waiting.
"You have no idea how difficult it is to see you walking down the hallway at a light pace.
The day Nezar came to visit you, did you fall out of bed and hit your head?
"I had to spend the whole night wondering what I did wrong because of you."
As the story progressed, he calmly wiped his mouth with the napkin he had placed on his lap.
"Guys, what did I do wrong to do this?
"Would you feel better if I stabbed the back of your hand with a fork to tell you to be quiet like before?"
"I know it's different than before.
"I thought a doppelgänger with the exact same face had hidden and pretended to be Katrina Ezelot."
This is why image is important to people in everyday life.
Just because I cut my knife calmly without shouting during meals, I can't believe I have to hear the same words over and over again for two days.
Feeling frustrated, I swallowed the water that was on the table.
"Yes, Kate, you have to swallow water like an animal."
I looked at Rick, who nodded in satisfaction as he comfortably drank some water.
"Do you want to keep scratching your insides from before?
Should I spit in your face like an animal?"
Instead of going against my warning, Rick was smiling comfortably with a look of relief on his face.
If I spoke harsh words one more time, he seemed ready to reach across the table and pat me on the head.
"I told you not to laugh in front of me while I ate, right?
"I feel like my stomach is going to turn upside down just looking at your smiling face?"
"good.
That's it, Kate.
This is the real you!
"You'd better stop imitating the ladies of the Joseon Dynasty, which won't work before your father returns."
I gulped down another glass of water to calm my boiling stomach.
Only two days have passed since I decided to become human.
Even out of pride, he didn't want to return to his original state after just two days.
It goes without saying, but the feeling of my employees not knowing what to do with the kindness I showed them and my blood-sworn enemies berating me right before my eyes was different.
If the first makes my heart proud, the second warms my blood for no reason.
How can Rick piss people off just by opening his mouth?
Even though his memories of his past life return, his patience with his siblings still seems to be at an all-time low.
"to stop."
At that moment, my mother, who had been listening to our conversation in silence, put down her fork.
"Rick and Rockherd."
"Yes."
"Yes."
Rick, who had been observing his mother's thoughts, responded in a low voice.
Unlike him, Rockherd twitched the corners of his mouth and barely suppressed his laughter.
"Whatever the reason, if Kate has decided to become a lady, even if it is too late, shouldn't we, like her older brother, help her?
But in this mother's eyes, it seems like you are just laughing at Kate's behavior and mocking her.
"Am I wrong?"
"no."
"No, so you're saying it's true?"
The sound of Rick swallowing could be heard as far away as I was.
Ugh, let's flirt.
I pretended to clear my throat and covered the clown who was trying to climb up with my napkin.
"Oh no."
"You two, stay away from Kate for a while.
Especially Rick!
"I know if you keep teasing Kate, I'm going to get yelled at."
After speaking in a firm voice, my mother immediately turned her gaze to me and smiled softly.
He also had a very gentle expression on his face that I had never seen in 15 years of his life.
"So, Kate, don't worry and work hard to learn etiquette.
This mother told the teacher in advance that they would increase the class time by three hours a week.
"If this time you get a good score on the test, I will buy you whatever you want."
I screamed with joy at these words.
It was a shame that class time was extended by three hours, but I felt like my mood would worsen when he said he would buy me whatever I wanted.
But this joy was short-lived.
That's because I realized too late that what I needed wasn't luxuries like dresses or necklaces.
Instead, rich lace dresses trailing the floor and jeweled necklaces the size of frog's eyes already overflowed my room.
In the past, the heavier my neck and ears became, the prouder I felt and the more confident I walked.
Could it be that this happened because I remembered my past life?
Things have changed a lot now that I can evaluate myself from an objective perspective.
It's a very sad thing to say directly, but...
What I wanted was something I couldn't receive as a gift from my mother.
"Daisy, why don't I have any friends?"
"...
... yes yes?"
Daisy, the waitress who served drinks at the garden table after lunch, opened her eyes.
My question is so shocking that even my hands shake.
"You've known me since you've seen me for so long, right?
"Why don't I have any friends?"
"that...
...
."
Daisy lowered her head.
"so...
...
. that is...
...
."
"Ah, Daisy.
It's okay, just be honest.
"I don't have friends because I'm unlucky."
Hearing the self-deprecating voice, Daisy stopped holding the teapot and grabbed his shoulder with a tearful face.
Even though I acted like a bitch, she was the only one by my side who cared about me.
I guess I couldn't explain why I was an outcast.
Yes, I have no friends.
It's unfortunate, but it was true.
At tea parties, whenever other children my age gathered in groups and burst out laughing, I sat alone next to my mother and ate the cake, taking it apart.
Still, I rarely felt alone.
It was worth it because he was busy fighting his brothers in the castle and chasing Nezar outside.
But as I said before, the story is a little different now.
As I remembered my past life and was reborn as New Katrina, I had a lifelong goal of giving Nezar a lover.
To achieve my goal, I had to stop playing and throwing mud with my brothers, and I also had to stop following Nezar.
All of this went towards my comfortable and peaceful retirement life.
"Daisy, what should I do to make friends?"
"well?
Firstly, shouldn't there be a conversation?
This way we have a chance to become friends."
"Are you saying I couldn't communicate in the past?"
"Umm, until two days ago, Miss Kate...
...I was closer to an animal than a person.
Well, if you continue as you are now, you'll be able to make friends without any problems!"
Damn, as offended as she was, Daisy was right.
So if I wanted to seduce a girl that Nezar would fall in love with, I would have to become a mature lady from now on.
A woman as soft as a whipped cream cake who drinks tea with her little finger raised, covers her mouth when she smiles and smiles every time she speaks!
"What kind of trick are you up to that you're laughing at yourself?"
At that moment, Rick's voice was suddenly heard.
I silently closed the cover of the book I was reading and raised my head.
I was sitting at the garden table, enjoying tea time like any other girl, but Rick, whose liver was on his stomach, ignored his mother's words and came to see me.
"What's really going on?
Why do you keep doing things you didn't do before?
"I barely read the literacy class book."
Rick's expression was very serious, different from before.
The lack of laughter was enough to make my lips tighten as I tried to spit out an expletive.
I placed the book I was holding on the table.
"Practically nothing.
"I'm just behaving a little calmly about the future."
"Don't talk nonsense.
"Is it possible that changing your personality is a condition for getting engaged to His Highness Nezar?"
It is not a condition for engagement, but a condition for breaking the engagement.
I shook my head no, but Rick's expression didn't seem to relax, as if he felt my answer was a lie.
"Kate, do you like His Highness so much?"
"Even if it's not because of Nezar?
"You may have passed puberty late.
Why are you reacting so sensitively?"
In fact, it was impossible to say that it was because I remembered my past life.
Who would treat me like a normal person after hearing something like that?
I lifted my chin and didn't back down, even when Rick looked suspiciously.
Rick, who was looking at my face, soon sighed loudly.
"OK.
I'll stop teasing you, so relax your eyes.
...
...
Instead, if anything happens, don't suffer alone and don't forget to tell me or Brother Rockherd.
"Don't break something that's fine again."
Rick reached out and stroked my head.
And soon after he turned his back and disappeared into the garden.
Perhaps because of his broad gait, Rick's popularity quickly faded beyond Margaret's perfume-filled garden.
Why am I suddenly doing something I don't normally do and making noise?
I patted the top of Rick's head where the heat remained with my hand.
Why treat someone who is only two years older than me like a child?
As he opened the cover of the book again and tilted the cup of tea, the maid who was standing far away approached.
Judging by his expression as bright as the morning sunlight, it seemed like good news had arrived.
"lose!
"His Majesty Nezar has come to visit us."
After all, excitement is not something to be taken lightly.
I lifted my body with unnatural movements, like a machine.
My heart started pounding when I thought that Nezar would be waiting for me when I arrived in the room.
Calm down, Kate.
You are different now than before.
Now there is absolutely no reason to be silently bullied!
However, unlike his strong heart, his callous legs moved hesitantly.